Reality Vs Dreams

Zany encounter!!!

2012-01-24T03:42:00.000-08:00

A good thing about my job is that I have the chance to meet people of all ages, nationalities, shapes and sizes!
Also, I spend a great deal of time with them and I analyze their personality. It's a habit I can't avoid and I believe it's totally normal and most of you would do the same!
However, what happened yesterday wasn't part of the everyday routine and even part of my craziest dreams!
I called it a day really late. It was about half past eleven. My other half usually picks me up from work but I had arranged to walk back home since it's not quite far. I was walking up the road and there they were...two past students of mine. Let's call them Loren and Mike!
Loren was always amiable and articulate but when work needed to be done she was absentminded and always made up the best arguments as excuses. Classes weren't for her. Free spirit as she is, was never into conforming under any authority. On top of these she is also very sophisticated, reading, playing three musical instruments and drawing. I always had the idea she will end up as an artist.It really suits her.
Mike...oh now we are talking!!! He was also very gregarious but pretentious and vain as well. There was something uncanny about him and i couldn't make out his true traits.Sometimes he was vigorous, ready to give it all and other times he was just remote and detached.
I thought about darting in the street until the next block where they wouldn't see me. However i am not that yellow! They seemed to quarrel but instantly stopped when they saw me. I mumbled half a he--o! And then boom...it was as if i reminded them of two years ago....our classes and all. Loren said hi and Mike...(who thought) started crying....! They tried to explain that their relationship had turned out to be very complicated and they oh so loved each other but...they....oh needed space and time and other people in their lives too...and...and ...and! I just nodded and nodded! The truth? I wanted to screammmmmm!!!!Grow up...!!! Wake up!!! What are you doing? I mean talking to a past teacher for your love life....and not a healthy love life....but a messed up one? Phw...i never got those people who didn't really know what they want!
I consider myself very very lucky!!! I am a lucky so and so, 'cause though money is not my thing I always know what i want...even if that is leaving, ending, putting a stop in a whatsoever story!
So I launched them my best smile and argued...the truth...they had to find out themselves!!! Hey folks....no one said life is easy. Now sorry but i have to dash!
Bye for now-

Happy New Year 2 0 1 2 ! ! !

2012-01-02T07:15:00.000-08:00

This is me! Back again...but i don't know for how long!!!
I've got news for you because new year eve's dreams have given me the unique opportunity of making extremely accurate predictions for the spectacular year 2012!
Get ready for a year full of joy my friends because no one and nothing is going to ruin any plans this year.
Stars, planets and...well...in fact entire milky ways are about to make our lives much easier by creating no problems at all. However be careful not to fall in the trap and over-think because this might create misunderstandings on its own. Single ones will be thrilled by new acquaintances and might meet one of their other halves too. Duet-es will communicate better than ever and succeed if they work cooperatively as one. New and old friendships will blossom and families will be closer than ever.
I know...it all sounds great and...it will be!Just be careful with your attitude...believe my prediction and live up to it...then you have nothing to be afraid of. If you don't and just keep acting and thinking like a mean, spiteful a-s...well...don't expect too much...be satisfied to just breathe air and live.
Happy-snappy extra-delicious and surprisingly successful new year!!!

T.A.

Mid...week!

2011-09-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

Who would believe that during so stressful days...i would escape through dreamy dreams?
Phew!

The Black Keys cover "Dearest" by Buddy Holly

2011-08-03T12:56:00.000-07:00

First summer day!!!

2011-06-21T01:06:00.000-07:00

A lot of people believed that this year...summer would never show up...!!!
I woke up this morning pretty early for my taste...to open the door to the hansom workers who placed a brand new awning in our small balcony. Hooray...hooray!!! Till now we had a small beach umbrella and trying to enjoy our coffee in the balcony was a bit like mission impossible. I am not complaining at least we had a really nice adequate for four people balcony. However...the official first day of the summer...as my Google friend signal informed me .... is the day we have our awning installed. Brilliant!!! Now i have to leave you and take a sip....of coffee out there!!!

Be there!

2011-06-11T08:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i wasn't there...and by there i mean home.
I am so glad i wasn't...cause by two filthy rats i was burgled...god what have i done?
They didn't take anything...but left some prints behind...and i was playing CSI up to midnight.

The nicest thing was all my friends who called and said they care...
Family...neighbors...even strangers...who fixed the door upstairs...
For those rats who where ill and unfortunate...since nothing was found to steal..
i have no harm in heart but sorrow and some pity.

It must be hard to be so sick...so deep in drugs to do...
such dreadful things like burst at homes...in the middle of the noon...
I hope things 'll change but if they don't ... my secret is revealed...

My happiness cannot be lost...by loss of material...!!!

Many thanx to my family and friends for yesterday and every other day....you are always here....it means a lot to me....you mean a lot to me!!!

P.S.(for two weeks now i cannot post any comments so...i am not being impolite but i just can't contact you..i'm so sorry...you can however mail me at thomaiath@gmail.com...thanx!!!)

Kiss that grrrl???

2011-05-02T04:43:00.001-07:00

I know....i owe you Paris photos and a lot more!
Well...my life is a bit up and down....here and there....crazyyyy!!!! I haven't mention it but to excuse my absence i have to confess that the trip to Paris didn't only bring beautiful picturesque in my life but also....a proposal....the proposal...from the one! I didn't really expect it and i was like fish out of water for sometime!!! I was happy...and anxious and fragile and dreamy and ...and ...and...thank god he didn't take it back. However....now i am back...ready to write about dreams again...!
Yesterday a friend came at my place to crash and celebrate my name day! After some grappa(italian liquer) shots....dreams became no 1subject...again...! How could i forget all these months the mysteriously attractive dreams we all have? Why the more inexplicable dreams are the most irritatingly interesting it is to analyze them?
The thing is...dreams are always parts of our deep secret thoughts. Most of these thoughts, wishes or instincts are hiding from us...or we are hiding from them. We live our lives in a much different way than we live in our dreams and this matters. In the last night talk i was surprised to listen that my one flies in his sleep...many and always under control. There is always the same scenery somewhere away from Greece. I had read about astral traveling through dreams before but i haven't really experience it. Such a shame because i'd love to travel a bit.
Back to my dreams although after some scary films...my dreams were ghosted for sometime...nothing much occured. I only had a short encounter with a stupid ugly scary thing but not as bad to make me clearly remember it until now. Thank god!
Jumping to reality...i am all day out...and if not i make plans and dream of summer and beautiful September when i will say "yes"! I might go to Oxford to visit a dear girlfriend( Kisses baby )! Also i might write the book i am always writing...! Cool hah? Nahhh!!!!

Kisses to all....and enjoy the beautiful song that blows my mind away...every time...!!!

;)

Cough Cough!!!

2011-02-25T03:31:00.000-08:00

Cough cough!
It sucks to be sick, doesn't it? Coughing and sneezing and blowing your nose in dozens of tissues all day long! I am officially recovering though. Thank God!!!
A friend of mine complained that i don't write at all recently...so here i am.
What's up? A bit of everything and nothing special too.
Today we have a carnival party at work...with karaoke and treasure hunting! Ain't just great? I am going to dress up as a happy face! I know. I am a happy face. However, i didn't like sad faces so...i am stuck with mine again.
Since this sick flu is so 'in' these days...i would like to dedicate this post to all the sick people out there. Don't let the sickness take you down. Fight it. Go out! Don't just stay at home all days! Drink a lot of orange juice...take your vitamins...and pray for Summer to come.
bye byugh!!!

:-D

2011-02-03T04:09:00.000-08:00

Hey ey ey ey! How are you?
I have no excuses for my absence! Let's say i was just absent!
Sometimes...it's just like that...
You don't feel like doing anything!
Somewhere in between the chasing of the tickets for a good play and the extra work that suddenly comes up...
Somewhere in between the mixed up opposite schedule you and your friends have and the agony of making it to watch the new amazing performance of an upcoming artist for whom everyone is talking...
Somewhere in between the unstoppable shopping of presents, clothes, accessories and groceries and the calls you receive and take from far away dears...
Somewhere in between hundreds of everyday things you want to do...
It hits you...
You have no time to do it all...no time to see it all...no time to see them all..no time to shop for all and no time to call all...
But...
You sit there...doing all the small things that make you feel good with yourself...good by yourself...
You read a book...(you find time for that)
you dance listening to Michael Buble and you try to sing too (it becomes a five minutes priority)
you smile to passers-by...(especially little kinds)
you stand to look at the sunny, cloudy, rainy sky and you feel unique...you feel free...because you have your time...you get your time...
and you wish others will understand...(those you care for to understand)!
And that...
is life...!
That's my life!

Good day to all!!!

P.S.(Photo taken on Slavery Museum in Liverpool three years ago. With regards to freedom and life!)

Happy New Year

2010-12-30T05:00:00.000-08:00

Isn't it just wonderful when dreams become reality! You bet!

I truly can't say anything for Paris...because there is nothing to live up to describing it! So little time...so many memories! Unboubtfully, I visited a factory that makes unforgetable moments.

For those close to me...even a one in a lifetime moment!!!

Anyway...i am still not entirely out of the Paris effect and i can say that i now understand quite well the need of people to snap every frame of Paris the best way they can. My pictures are not yet to be shown but hopefully in a few weeks i will create a respected post!

For now...i'm just more than glad to be as far from Athens as i can be! Back in Kastoria...were that cold is always present nomatter the sunshine and people dance and drink all day everyday! That's what i like in here and in almost every small greek town...there is still tradition going on. By tradition i don't mean sitting around the table and eating as much as a pig can eat just because it's christmas. I simply mean listening carols everywhere. Watching people drinking wine and traditional alcoholic shots on the streets while fires are set on and small pieces of meat are cooked next to the them and the band. Oh of course...there is always a band around...in kastoria these days. Playing songs familiar in greek folk music and our neightbouring country Serbia. We just love Bregovic!

Back to Athens and my everyday contact with my one and only who is still working during these days...i feel such pity, Christmas melancholy and sorrow. People there...shop,shop and oh yes...shop. Nothing more. I surely hope and believe there are exceptions. However this morning after hearing the news of the bombs...in Athens and elsewhere i just got scared again. What are these people there doing? Shopping while beside them a revolution is beggining? A revolution is beggining surely. Some think that what happened two years ago is over now...but god have they misinterpreted things. The heat is burning underneath the cooling surface...getting ready to exlode again with the next chance it'll find. Scary...spooky...wrong or right...promising and evolutionary...different opinions occur! However...It's christmas...a new year is approaching...the worst of all for our economy as they say but...here...in the sweet atmosphear of my little hometown ...where the air smells like burning fireplace and you can hear loud laughters in every corner...it all seems like a bad nightmare...! A really unsettling dream for now. Let's just hope the spirit will reach our capital too!!!

Happy new year everyone!!!

My love and best wishes to all!!!!

Looking forward for P!!!

2010-12-10T02:16:00.000-08:00

Good day everyone!
I am more than pleased to announce that my prayers have finally been taken into account by the Great one! So...snow and cold weather are to be expected here in Greece in the hot hot hot till now town of Athens!
However...i am also pretty concerned about my flight next week! I don't think i mentioned it before but Paris has been on my Christmas schedule since July and i can't wait to go! Unfortunately, bad weather can destroy it all...so now i am actually praying for a less aggressive sky during my precious European visit! Paris is another dream coming true and i am pleading every god i know not to destroy it for me. Please please please!
It seems like i can never feel satisfied by what i get. The ideal would be to snow for a while...stop during my trip and start as soon as i'm back again. Am i asking for too much? Hmm! No comment!
My dreams are still weird but in a beautiful way! I am working all day and sleeping all night so they seem to be very affected by my day life right now! Not that i could remember much since i have been busy 24/7!
That's all for now! I hope it snows in town...but not too much...so much as to make a small snowman!
Keep it real
T.

:(

2010-12-03T02:08:00.000-08:00

I have only one sentence to write...one only!
But i don't want to create any misunderstandings!
I know entire Europe is facing difficulties because of the extremely bad weather and maybe they'd wish to have the weather of Greece!
However...grown up in a small town where winter was cold and full of snow and living in Athens three years now not seeing a single snowflake makes me sad! And finally what i want to say...really...after weeks of stupid sunny-cloudy but not rainy days...is...

I HATE WEATHER IN ATHENS!

Lucky...so and so!

2010-11-10T04:26:00.000-08:00

The dreams book is large...huge...massive...and keeps expanding. How i know...? I figure it out every other night when i have an entirely new dream.
What about lucky dreams? You know...you all have eventually dreamed of numbers or winning lottery numbers! That's the case with me...last two nights. First numbers of something like lottery game...which i played today and won nothing...! Then last night i dreamed of some lottery numbers. However, they weren't all winning numbers...only four of them. And at the end...i won 167euro. Oh yes,,,i remember the exact number. I don't know if it was a sign or just an effect after playing too many games during the weekend. What i know...is that...we live in hard times so i could use even 167euro...so i played the numbers today...and at night i'll know if i was right. Wish me luck!!!

Bye4now....
T.

Oh Man!

2010-11-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

From all my dreams...i can't forget the nightmares...and those with him!
The last two years...i keep dreaming of a famous actor whom i really really really like! I won't name him but i'll call him Man! In my dreams...he is always perfect and makes me feel amazing! I keep confusing Man with my man...and i still don't know who i'm really dreaming of...but who cares!
Last night Man made me so happy...just by the feeling of his hug...! Today i woke up..feeling ecstatically good and thanking my good luck for having that kind of dream again...and again!
I think i am in love...and really...its a dream...not like a dream! Hehe!

Keep dreaming and who knows...maybe you'll have my luck too!!! ;D

Happy...!

2010-11-01T01:54:00.000-07:00

Hello!
One day after my twenty-fifth birthday and i feel good...so good...so good...!
All these years and especially during childhood, my birthday was always a special day. Birthday parties which i totally enjoyed until the age of thirteen...! Then as a teenager...i used to buy my friends dinner and drinks...and at my late teens i thought that would be it...the end of the ecstatic celebrations. However...i was wrong. Even when i had exams or the most stressful university study my family had arranged this small surprise which for me was so big!
I have been surprised three times...but from those three yesterday was the best...in my pyjamas...almost ready to crash...and boom...everybody knew but me.
That makes me think...all these special days...until now...and appreciate all these people which love me so much...all these friends that still remember me...year after year since our first baby steps...and i just have to say...thank you...thank you all!

No comment!

2010-10-20T02:01:00.000-07:00

Patty Griffin - Moon River Lyrics @ LyricsTime.com

Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.

Medium? X

2010-10-14T03:57:00.000-07:00

Hm...hm...hm!
The past two days are full of sleep...and full of dreams!
I just got the habit of watching that series called "medium" where the medium is a woman who has visions while dreaming! Sometimes it's a bit scary but the worst thing is that it's on air at 1:00-2:00! So...figure it out...i fall asleep at about 2:30 and wake up late....realllyyy late!
The worst of it is that i kind of forget my own dreams...! That was inconceivable for me...till last week. The solution is one...drop the medium and start King's huge novel....Under The Dome...! I think it's about time i do it!

Greetings.....
T.

Drinking dreams!

2010-10-11T03:17:00.000-07:00

Oh no...by drinking i don't refer to alcoholism!
Saturday night! After laughing a lot at a downtown theater performance...the atmosphere was chilly...as we said autumn is here for good...and i needed a drink!
I remembered a wonderful place at Athena's old neighborhood "Plaka"! It is something between a bar and a cellar or liquor store. Walls full of shelves...shelves full of bottles...bottles full of colorful liquids...liqueurs...for me pomegranate...for him raspberry! Yummie...and getting lost! Suddenly past memories are floating in the air...becoming one with those that are now being formed.
I finally hit the bed and just as i thought i had the best of dreams...!
Have a wonderful week...
Cheers...
T.

Welcome autumn!

2010-10-07T02:31:00.000-07:00

It's been a month since my first thought of Autumn. I remember thinking that though autumn is here October must come to feel the wonderful chill after the hot summer!
The last two days were in the middle, hot mornings...cold nights. But today...finally...i woke up on an autumn day.
Outside the sky has the color of ash and the atmosphere is paused by a distinctive slow breeze. I just cooked a hot oily dish of beans for lunch and now that i am writing this...i can't resist my will to have a cup of tea, look outside and whisper...welcome autumn...!

P.S.(I need to buy some Vitamic C...big chills are coming...hopefully!!!hehe!)

A Year After...!

2010-09-27T22:57:00.000-07:00

There is a thin line between what i dream unconsciously and what i make myself dream when body sleeping. As a dedication to Poe, Burton and King (all of whom introduced me to mysterious worlds) i had to push myself forward and reject any medieval religious prejudices. Honestly i had no idea that the science of dreaming had evolve that far which is rather ingenuous of me i have to admit. But enough with the incomplete talking...how it all started...?
When i first started this blog i had that weird idea to discuss about dreams, reality, the battle between the two...and who knows...maybe reach a point to succeed sometimes in connecting my dreams with my reality. A year passed and i had numerous dreams! Some of them i shared here..some of them not. I pretty much remember the bad dreams mostly. I don't know why...maybe because they are more intense. Last night i had an experience during dreaming probably the hundredth similar experience since the age of thirteen.
As a young girl when physically stressed or tired i used to dream of dreadful things and somehow wake up in my sleep. I actually realized i was dreaming and for some seconds that seemed a century i struggled to wake myself up. I remember trying to move and when i came to the conclusion i couldn't(because my body was still sleeping) i panicked. Then to my surprise i could see myself in the exact space...room...bed...that i was really sleeping on and gathering all my physical power to move only an inch or fall from my bed but again only in the dream. Weird ha?
Well not that much.
I had to pass through many similar to that scary conscious nightmares to come to the fact that it is just something biological and not an evil spirit torturing me. I read about the NREM sleep and the REM sleep when dreams occur. I read about the many labs and universities that study dreaming. I became familiar with the terms lucid, paralysis and astral. So many details...so much research that i thank god i live in the 21st century and have access to all of it.
Thinking all this and all y dreams over the year worked as keeping a journal. I have now gained the power of remembering most of the crucial dreams that wake me up. As i said i mostly remembered the nightmares but this morning it occurred to me that it's not so.
My morning dream was an outcome of WILD. I remember waking up at about 6:30 and forcing myself to fall back to sleep immediately. Then i had a lucid dream which i could control. I was possibly hungry because i hadn't really eaten properly last night. I watch a lot of Top Chef so...i pictured myself as a chef, i scrambled eggs with the shell and cheese with cream. I tasted the mixture and i could slightly feel the egg shell as if it had become dust and thinking who much of such a egg shell dust might been hidden in fast food products. Then i was back home and my bowl was filled with that mixture plus pasta. Oh they where delicious and i just had to share them with my boyfriend. Suddenly, the moment i thought of that...i lost control...i remembered..i in bed dreaming...how could i simultaneously have the taste of that pasta in my mouth since it wasn't real. I kept dreaming but now i dreamed of things unlinked with each other...things really far from what i act like even in dreams. It was me...but a nasty, horrible, vengeful, violent me! I tried to move and get out of it..i couldn't, i panicked, struggled and finally woke up.
I immediately started thinking again and again the details of the dream in order to not forget it. Now i know i do this because i read is the best way to practice remembering and gradually gaining control over lucid dreams. I also made the connection between anxiety and that total conscious loss of control. Surprisingly, i remembered having two wonderful lucid dreams in which i had most of control but hadn't known in time.
After all this thinking and little now and then searching i also came up to the term astral travelling through dreams and as always i want to view the positive side of all these strange dreams i often have. It's much more pleasant and satisfying to think of taking the advantage to experience new possibilities that believing you are a victim of a syndrome or a paranormal effect. Don't you think? Overall, if you fail you have the chance to say...ooohhh it was just a nightmare!

Summer review!

2010-08-31T02:18:00.000-07:00

Good day to all of you!
I hope you all had an unforgettable summer! Some of you might still enjoying holidays...however i don't. I am back for good and trying to figure out what the next week is going to be like. You see next week I'll be working again...not full time(not till October) but....WORKING!
In the meantime...this week is something like a break week between no worries warm summer and full of responsibilities chilly working autumn. I had hundreds of things which i wanted to share with you here during the summer...but somehow the keyboard was so far away...and i just wanted to lay my fingers in the sun.
Now it's a good time to refill the gap and show you some wonderful pics from everything...!

I had a wonderful time on the island...! It was amazing that the simple advice my friends gave me..."Fill your eyes and soul with images"...became literally real! W O W ! ! !

Drinking lemonade and watching the sun go down...near the lake!

Watching some beautiful flowers on G's little yard!

Fooling around...and sitting on a bench...watching a fisherman near the swans!

Under an almost full moon...watching a movie filmed in my hometown...what an atmosphere!

Admiring the beautiful old traditional houses!

By the time i went home i couldn't wait to go out again and have another cup of coffee or a beer with my childhood friends...who are still as dummy as then...!

However...i was surprised to see an architectural jewel become an everyday coffee-beer shop! "Anthos" (Flower) Coffee shop was warm and cozy...just like Lilly and her husband with whom i had a small talk.

And at last...let's just fly...fly away...dream...dream away...!!!

Happy Autumn to all of you and...let's all hope it will be chilly and full of joy!

It's always better with music!

2010-07-20T05:45:00.000-07:00

Hello...hello!

3weeks almost passed and i am about to go back...to the big city!

It's been great...it's been more than great! It's been wonderful all this time! I am full of pictures and feelings! Close to family and dear friends but so much away from you! You know i don't usually mention you on blog...but i guess it was about time to do it, don't you?

Last week i spent one evening on a wonderful scenery with friends...yesterday i had a late at night stroll near the lake with friends again. I hadn't realised how much i had missed you since i heard that song again.

My friend G. has a cd on her car with the most amazing and different from one another songs. I had listened to that same song a week ago on our scenery ride and i had found it kind of cheesy...it reminded me of wedding songs! However...last night after listening to it again, i couldn't take it out of my mind and i couldn't take you out of my mind!

Just in case my friends take the amazing opportunity to tease me about this post....slow down girls...i'll miss you too now that i'll hit the road again! But i won't forget our rides on that amazing scenery...watching little villages down the mountain glowing like small pearls and our hometown standing there cycled by water...travelling back and forwards in our childhood and our present! Oh, yes...you looked wonderful...and baby...you'll look wonderful tonight!

Sweet home!

2010-07-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!

As you all know i am spending some days with my family in my wonderful hometown! What you don't know is that i am also visiting my grandama who lives in a small town near as.

When i was a child i used to practicly live with my granny. I loved her and still love her deeply! Yesterday she prepaired a meal for us and i had the chance to stay with her and take some photos of her flowers. She is very attached to her garden. She grows flowers and vegetables and i feel lucky to have smelt and tasted both of them.

Somehow it takes me back when i was five or six years old. She used to have a cherry tree to and when i didn't want to eat lunch she took me under that tree in the garden and told me stories to trick me and make me open my mouth to the vegetables which i then hated! Unbelievable! I also used to pactise my circus balance abilities on her fence and the leaves of that same cherry tree had made me fall and break my arm.

It seems so long ago as in a dream...but it isn't! If i could turn back time i wouldn't change a thing but maybe make it last longer! Now i am expecting her to come and stay with us for a few days...and granny as always will probably arrive home with bags full of vegetables, ready to cook and please all of us! Inspiring for all of us! Thank's granny!

Love

P.S.(Photos taken by my mobile...i forgot my precious camera in Athens!)

Dreamy late afternoon!

2010-07-12T05:23:00.000-07:00

Hello World!

Yesterday i had a marvelous late afternoon and night with some dear friends...! I really wanted to post our photos but one of them threatened me...to get a lawyer if i did so. Anyway...i also grasped some shots of a playful swan and a cunning duck...they kept coming closer but once i tried to click...turned around...! Enjoy!

Opposites meet!

2010-07-05T02:29:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!!!

How are you? I'm better than fine! It was a weekend full of everything! I am officially back to my hometown and althought my one and olnly is far away and i king of miss him...i can't say that i don't have fun.

Saturday was the day Georgia's sister got married. It was a traditional greek wedding and i particularly enjoyed it because neither had i been to such a wedding for years nor had i seen my dear friend for a month. We helped a little by giving the "Bobonieres" to the guests after the wedding. "Boboniera" is a a little package made by transparent white fabric, filled with candy named "koufeta". The "koufeto" candy is like a hard caramel but on the inside filled with almond or chocolate. Anyway...our responsibility was to give away all those little packages to the guests and that's what we successfully did. After that...we went to the party...ate, drink and danced...not a lot but as much as we could.

You see...i had to wake up on Sunday because i had to be on a family trip. Amazing! It was amazing! We went at Syvota! Syvota is an area on the north-west coast of Greece near Igoumenitsa. To travel there from Kastoria we passed from Grevena, Metsovo and Ioannina. A road trip full of green nature images. I was speechless when among all the high green mountains my eyes grasped a corner of blue and then the blue became one with the green. To reach Syvota you travel high in mountains and have a beautiful view of the Ionian Sea. Syvota is built on a small gulf of the countless in the area opposite some pretty small green islands almost connected with the main land.

The day was very hot and full of sun so we swimmed and sunbathed as much as we could. The water was cold and refreshing. The color of it was lake like green which was weird and interesting for me because i had never seen such a sea color before.

Returning home i felt like in that area of Greece high mountains meet sea-coasts which is very strange and rarely met in the rest of the country. Or probably i haven't seen it till now. Looking back the place we left and forward the mountain line i viewed glorious sunlight (back) and big grey clouds (forward). Amazing even opposite wether conditions meet here. I was sure somewhere a rainbow would connect the two...but i was too tired to search...i hust closed my eyes and thought of the beatiful day. Opening them a last time i viewed one of the clouds hiding the sun. The connection had been achieved and now i was really ready to go home and crash to bed wishing to visit this place once more before going back to Athens.

Talk to you soon,

Love

P.S.(Pictures borrowed by sivotaedem.gr, sivotarealestate.com,greekislandsclub.com.uk...i'll upload my photos when i'm back in Athens!!!)

Paradise!

2010-06-28T02:03:00.000-07:00

A sight for sore eyes! Sometimes...words are unnecessary! Enjoy!

Bombed and Stolen!

2010-06-25T06:52:00.000-07:00

Hi!
Just a day after the bomb eruption in the office of the minister of social security in Athens and the loss of another human being, here i am feeling more than ever that things are wrong! Things are so wrong here in Athens.
Last night i didn't dream of anything special but when i woke up this morning i had a feeling. I didn't want to carry a lot of cash with me and i had second thoughts about going downtown. I pushed my thoughts aside and met a friend of mine. We had a coffee and then visited some shops. I wanted to buy some colors appropriate for fabric. I had found a vibrant red and a light yellow which would have been excellent if only i had had my wallet to pay for them.
Oh yes...my wallet had been stolen. I couldn't believe it. But somehow i knew it would happen. I was thinking about it the whole morning.
The rest is history for anyone who had the same experience. Back in the shops. I left my name and phone number. Police station...declare the loss and were it took place. Actually now that i am thinking about it i felt better in the police station. The policewoman told me that most of the times they find the wallets. And all i really want is my wallet back not the money included.
My one and only was really upset about it but i guess as i he hasn't really faced the new reality of this city.
A friend told me i shouldn't go downtown alone. It was funny since two days ago a woman asked me for a coin to buy some bread here in my peaceful, quiet neighborhood. It is funny because just three days ago another friend described to me how a girl threatened to stab her with a knife near a crowded metro station just for five euros.
It's not that i make a lot of money. No that's not how it is at all but what are all these people thinking? Do they actually need the money? I was pick-pocked in a big superstore on Ermou street in the center of Athens. I usually don't shop there. I actually hate it there but today as i said before was my day to be stolen. And today more than the other days i can't wait to leave Athens. Today more than any other day of this year i can't stop thinking of my cute, little hometown where you almost know everyone and even if you don't there is no place that can be described as crowded. Sweet home i am coming. Time to punish Athens and make it miss me a little bit.
Sad but true...
T.

P.S.(if you walk about Kapnikarea square on Ermou street in Athens and your eye catches a red wallet somewhere pick it up please...i had a photograph of my sweet 12year old brother on it(he looks like Justin Bieber) and my id Thomai.....thank you...)

Romantic nightmare!

2010-06-23T01:30:00.000-07:00

Good morning!
Oh yes...i've just woken up! These past two weeks have been really crazy! My job schedule has been changed so many times that i still get confused and have to check. Fortunately, it's only until next week because after the 30th of June i'll be gone from Athens! Not that i don't like it. I had much fun...going-out...meeting people...shopping e.t.c. but i have to go somewhere where nature is closer. I have to see my parents, my bro and schoolmates from high school. I've really missed them.
The dreams i had all these time where so different. One is the most important to mention. Last week it was hot...very hot...and i was sleeping alone in the bedroom as my one and only had fallen asleep on the living rooms' couch next to the air-condition. It was hard to sleep. I had to change sides and positions many times. Actually it was uncomfortable. Yes, that's the word. But i managed to grasp a dream. I saw somebody breaking in from the balcony door which was beside me and the strangest thing was that i heard the sound of the door breaking and opening. I heard that sound as clearly as the tapping of the keys right now. And, i screamed. I called my one and only...who woke up and called me back. We both started running towards the other and met half-way. It was such a relief falling in his arms. I just couldn't stop trembling. I was really upset.
The whole thing was very romantic. I am not usually as sensitive as that night(considering the fact that i've been living and sleeping alone for five years). Moreover, i don't really know why i felt so scared and helpless but thank god it was so good to have someone hug you after that.
Since that night the weather had been cooler and my dreams have been far from nightmares. Summer is here and i am going on an island trip this weekend. Can't wait. Swimming in the blue Aegean waters, lying on the sun and drinking ouzo will make me sleep like i'm in heaven and who knows...maybe dream heaven too. I'll let you know soon.
Let me know some dreams you had too.
Love you
T.

Stars...

2010-06-10T21:46:00.000-07:00

Good morning world!
How are things today? You won't guess but today i woke up particularly early in the morning! I was up at six thirty which is a crime for a sleep lover like me.
Oh...no i didn't really have a nightmare problem...and no...ug-ug you can't call it insomnia crisis...although it was a mix.
The truth is that i had the most weird dreams again. Not frightening but a bit strange since it was from the few times that i had the consciousness i created the pre-dream stages. Too bloody complicated! The thoughts crossing my mind were so many it would have been impossible to count and the striking point came just before falling into the normal dreamy sleep. There was a moment there...a freaky instant of a moment that i felt as my somehow connected thoughts were drifting away from me and i was struck by a million others...by a billion star-thoughts. It was amazing...but i immediately fall asleep and remember few after that. Most of them were morning breeze reactions and finally the waking up. Weird ha? Have ever had such an experience or feeling? I'd be glad if you told me.
Anyway, that's all for now...i have to treat myself with a cup of coffee...otherwise i'll fall...again. Bye-bye sleep...hello coffee!
Have a wonderful day...
T.

Day and Night!

2010-05-31T04:50:00.000-07:00

Living in Athens gives me the unquestionable privilege of visiting the ancient neighborhoods in the side of Acropolis whenever i feel like! When you walk there you don't want to stop..and when you sit under the Ancient temple time slows down as in a dream...before you realize it Day...becomes Night!
Dreamjoy...
;) T.

Opposites attract!

2010-05-28T05:54:00.000-07:00

Pop!
You know how things sometimes pop into your mind? Well a song popped into mine a few minutes ago.I'm stuck with it and feeling like loving it!
The weird thing is that i don't really experience such a situation right now but on the contrary...an exact opposite one. My love is not tainted at all but somehow i can connect to the feeling of tainted love as in a dream. Maybe i had a dream like that last night and i can't remember it now. Maybe somewhere deep inside me it reminds me of a past experience i had in this or another life (if the idea of having other lives exists). Maybe is just the fact that i am especially sensitive on being affected by highly emotionally artistic pieces. Wooh! Who knows? Who cares...? Just enjoy the powerful music, lyrics and voice of Gloria Jones.

Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

(chorus)
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a girl could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Oh...tainted love
Tainted love

Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want It any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you'll think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way

(chorus...)

Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Tainted love, tainted love (x2)
Touch me baby, tainted love (x2)
Tainted love (x3)

P.S.(Just in case...Opposites attract...refers to the fact that the songs' feeling is opposite to what i feel in real life...but still attracts me!)

Dreamy path!

2010-05-28T02:51:00.001-07:00

This is the path of my dreams and i am really glad to say that it actually also exists in real life. These were taken while i was on a trip on the city where i spent most of my childhood...and hope to be able to settle again one day! Enjoy and dream!

Human connection!

2010-05-27T03:17:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone...
These days i am particularly happy...as happy as a hippo! My personal life is blooming and there is no reason to hide it...is there?
Moreover, i am studying a lot...mostly because of work but additionally some good horror literature. I have also sketched some new paintings and can't wait until next week when my schedule will be less busy to start developing them...from ideas to real beautiful images.
So...my life is full...but when i truly consider it...it wasn't work..or studying or creating that made it full...it was people...new people. The last two years i have met knew people who somehow became my family...i slowly but steadily connect to them...we create memories...and memories are life. I believe that human relationships are the most important feature of a happy life. Living alone all these years i had realized it but never utter it. Now that i no longer live alone but with my other half...i can finally feel grateful for all the happiness i luckily experience. It seems now that after all these years of frustration and overnight craziness...i found what i was dreaming of. Dreaming of something is most of times totally different than looking or living it. Therefore...surprise and elevation arose when you face a dream before your eyes. :-D

If only every dream appeared in front of us as we hoped!
Sweet life...to all of you!
T.

An Unexpected Joy!

2010-05-20T03:16:00.000-07:00

Sooo...there i was again...lying on my bed and reading frightening stories...feeling my eyes getting heavier and slightly losing sight of the room...falling asleep and...dreaming!
Once more i have no idea why i dreamed something like this but it was wonderful! We (me and my friend) had arranged or happened to go on a concert. I don't remember who was playing but it was a massive one and as we were waiting some friends were with us...whom of course i hadn't seen before.
Then...the doors opened but we decided to wait and...for no particular reason get in from a back door. As we were getting in i was left behind for only a while and stepped into a piece of cellophane which was lying on the floor. I immediately turned around and looked at my footsteps on it. Near it i saw a technician. Quite handsome i must admit. He had beautiful warm and kind eyes...and long black hair. So i froze for a second and then said i was really sorry that i stepped on the cellophane. He just smiled and asked me my name. I answered like that : "Thomais" and he said "I love you Thomais". I couldn't believe my ears. I mumbled something like...yeah..right and i left running.
That was the hi pick of my dream...after that i only saw images of the concert which i don't remember well...except from a panoramic one and also an image of a beautiful girl standing somewhere alone.
I woke up today feeling good...really good and then i started thinking about. Is this some kind of giving back? Maybe fate decided to honour me with such a joyful dream because these days i' ve been really kind but stressed out too. I don't know. Maybe.
What's sure...is that i wish i remembered a dream like this one every morning.

Take care...
I love you
T.

22/05!

2010-05-19T02:48:00.000-07:00

Well i don't know if you'll have internet connection on 22/05 so here i am writing this before 22.

It is important to have dreams. We've talked about this a hundred times before.

I usually included you in my day-dreams...and you usually included me. And this was more than a friendship.

I started dreaming about you at night. That's how much I'd missed you.

You started having nightmares that i wasn't there anymore. And this became your worst fear.

Then you proposed to come closer and i just couldn't believe it. You were so eager...it scared me.

I had forgotten about other people. All i could think was you.

I was finally eager too.

We came back to were we started...Talking and dreaming...living together but not with each other.

I still miss you. I still dream of you...and i know you still dream of me.

That's how it always was...that's how it'll always be.

The circle never closes. And you keep chasing me...or am i chasing you.

It's beautiful but scary. Is it real or is it a dream? My dream...our dream?

It's real when i see you sleeping next to me...i feel your breath...i smell your skin...i see your eyes moving and dreaming...what exactly i don' t know.

But...by the morning i feel your touch moving away...you whisper dreamy words and when i wake up you're gone.

Sometimes i think...that was it...i'm back again...living alone...just on my own.

But you always belie me...by being there.

Until now and for the time to come...
Thank you...B.O.
L.o.

P.S.(Enjoy it all at...http://www.shelsilverstein.com/html/books.asp)

Tenderness...?

2010-05-09T15:24:00.000-07:00

I believe nobody can resist...can you? No...not when he tries a little tenderness. If he doesn't... well...you have a problem! Sweet dreams...

The importance of being sincere!

2010-04-20T03:02:00.000-07:00

Dear love,
I have confronted you in the best way i could!
You were mischievous many many many times.
But i forgave you. Because that's how love is.
I have been mischievous too. I like games...but even games have limits.
I love truth. I hate lies.
I think we all do. A lie is worse than betrayal.
A lie is a black hole in the universe. It is the black hole of the love destiny.
But let's just not forget that we make our choices.
We control our destiny, don't we?
I control my destiny, don't i?
What? What was that?
What did you say?
Well...wait and see!

P.S.(It's really hard being a scorpion. I dedicate this kind of reflections letter-poem to a friend of mine who is also a scorpion and can totally understand me. Well that's it my friends. Let's all raise our red wine glasses to...unexpected but welcomed revenge! Whenever it may come!)

Let's do "it" !

2010-04-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

Hey world!
Here i am...rather excited because i just bought Stephen King's "It" and i can't wait to start reading it. It's been a fabulous day even thought last night i had some usual headache nightmares. Well, it didn't get me down anyway. Maybe it was due to that ridiculous modern art exhibition i went to see. Well, you know how everybody talks about things and places you "must" see in town. In Athens those "must" points when they reach the level of must have actually became an it "sucks". No, don't get me wrong. It wasn't that bad. The main exhibition was nice. But the rest of it...old rooms with stone walls full of dirt, mud and humidity, really didn't stroke me at all. It smelled awfully. It felt awfully and some rooms reminded me of some creepy modern art exhibits i had seen in Britain. That's why i refused to stay for a drink there. The atmosphere was just too disappointing. Not for me. You know...I'm a dreamer and dreamers like to escape from misery..at least when we are awake. Now that i'm thinking about it more clearly i'll never want to visit that place again. It sucked and it also sucked my energy. That's why weird dreams stroke me again.
And that's not all. After that constructive experience i just had the most constructive conversation with a friend of mine about the way Athens could be a more beautiful city. OMG! I don't really know how i fell for that. I had drunk a bit of ouzo again. (Ouzo will destroy my life someday). Anyway...it all started like that...he asked me what would i have done if i had won the lottery. I naturally said that i would leave Athens for most of the year and live on a exquisitely beautiful greek island. Open a gallery. Paint and write all day and also...work during the winter. He looked at me as thought i was from another planet. "I would move to another European city", he said. "Probably London." I couldn't believe my ears. Living in another country is nice for a while but wouldn't someone miss their home-country,their hometown, their family. I would. I have rather strong bonds with my family and country.I respect different opinions so we moved on and...
Moreover he started complaining about how things here in Athens are. That's when i just couldn't open my mouth to speak. If i hate something in people...is complaining. I hate complaining and blaming. I do so because i believe it is the easiest thing to do. Everybody complains, everybody tries to find solutions to problems like the "economic", "environmental" crisis and how they do this? By talking, blaming and complaining? They act as if they are the same politicians which they actually hate. And the problem is that they only react through talking and don't really act. Thousands of conversations on analysis of political mistakes, environmental crimes, criminality, poverty etc are posted on blogs every year and what's the use? Have we heard anything happening after that? Have we heard anyone of those strong-willing,strong-opinionated savors really acting? To act you have to be more than words. You have to be able to influence other people to act with you. Create a group. Be a hero. We must all be heroes. Or act as ones and take over the world! Of course i didn't tell my dear friend all those thoughts. He'd thought i read a lot of King's horror science fiction. So i just said that complaining isn't enough. Discussing it isn't enough. We should have it as a priority on our daily routines. Do something everyday. Every person would do whatever he or she can...to change the misery.
Yes world i fell again in that deep discussing hole of how to change you...! I let my friend have the last word because i was too tired of listening complex ideas and solutions...i was too tired of that and wanted just to watch you world.
I know that many people don't have the privilege to see you as i see you. I'd like to help...help them all. I know i can. I know we all can. But not only by talking...not only by writing...there are much more things to do. Let's go and have them done ourselves. Let's wake up! Let's see people and not cities. Let's care about humanity not financial profits. We can't see the forest for the trees and until we change that nothing is really changing.
Goodnight world...i really like living in you...you are one of my closest friends and since i like you so much i shall start making you better...aren't i?

Best wishes to all of you...i hope you feel and do the same!

P.S. (The image of Picasso's Guernica is respectfully borrowed by our useful wikipedia. I place it here before this post just to emphasize the difference between peace and war...and also show what happens when people are like bulls in a china shop.)

Dear friends...

2010-04-03T09:36:00.000-07:00

To all my friends,

This is how it goes...I visited my hometown once again because of Easter holidays and i had a weird dream. What's wrong with that? Well it was a peculiar forbidden dream which i made the mistake to mention to some of my friends.

I really didn't like the dream. It was mostly like a nightmare, a sinful nightmare though. I thought of it for only a while and let it drop. It didn't really struck me. The same night, however, after drinking a bit of "ouzo"(1) I popped it out to my friends. It came out naturally as it always does. But the truth was that i had a forbidden dream during the Holy week. So...of course they didn't lose time and took the precious advantage of making fun of me and trying to find out spicy details which i wisely kept in the secret box.

After laughing a bit about it i promised that i would write about the dream here just to make them calm down. I believe they hoped i would reveal something or at least give them some hints but no, not me. Privacy is important fellows. You should have known it by now. What? Buy me? No way! What? New shoes...and this and that? Ok stop it...just call me and we'll figure it out!

Bye bye for now phone is ringing....i have to go...byeee

(1) ouzo: (An anise-flavored spirit that is widely consumed in Greece. Its taste is quite similar to arak, zivania, or raki (in the Levant, Cyprus,and Turkey), pastis or absinthe (France),

Sambuca (Italy), or mastika (Chios). It can be consumed neat or mixed with water :according to our useful wikipedia).

The importance of being stupid!

2010-04-02T08:57:00.000-07:00

Hello hello,

After some time of relaxation i really felt the need to comment on everyday mistakes. Yes, i place it directly and quite clearly. I want to comment on everyday common mistakes! I make mistakes, you make mistakes, everybody makes mistakes! You can find advantages and disadvantages on everyone's character. However, here i won't refer to our flaws. I had written about flaws before. I would like to criticize me and all those who don't understand the importance of being stupid.

Sometimes i think about situations and behaviours i had to confront and i judge myself as really being stupid at that time. You know when some people aren't really the nicest you have met and enjoy putting you down or make unflattering jokes about you (believing that they are so humorous...almost hilarious and sometimes even smarter this way). Well i have often accepted those "jokes". I have even laughed on me. And feeling bad and angry about it later. I believe i am not the only one who has. I have the slight suspicion that there are many of you out there who have had a similar experience.

I don't know your solution. If you just pass it by or have serious fights with people now and then. What i figured out is that i am ok the way i am. I feel good about me. Being nice or at least believing you are nice isn't always easy but its worth it. Sometimes people think you are being nice because you don't have the power or the smartness to say something back. But let me ask, shall i be angry and put out my poisonous tongue(for which i am really famous among my close friends) and destroy the delightful atmpsphere just because of a tiny comment. Yes, i laught with myself. I laught with those who believe they achieve something by making those three year old jokes. And when i politely answer back they kind of change colour because they can't believe that i actually enjoy it. It's like a challenge for me. It is like when my four year old niece told me that i had the biggest XXXXX in our family and i couldn't stop laughing and feeling really good about it.

Yes my fellow dreamers, i believe this is a good way to react. When i was younger sometimes i used to get angry or even cry later when i was alone. But not anymore.

I have later in life realised that time and moments are too precious to spend them by payind any attention to these tiny details. Laugh, love and dream that's what we should do! Any other suggestions?

I'll be back soon

Take care

Rome-new!

2010-03-16T04:17:00.000-07:00

Buongiorno,
I 'm sitting on my couch eating a carrot like my old friend Bugs and trying to keep contact with reality. Two days ago i was in Rome, Italy. I truly feel i want to go back there again. What am i doing here? It was like living on a fairytale. A wonderful crowded ancient fairytale.
Not all my friends enjoyed the trip. However, i had the biggest advantage. I was the dreamer and dreamers always have fun escaping in the world of castles and dragons or in the cafes of italian romance. I am a romantic dreamer and i still search for those little alleys to hide and get lost in.
I'm not going to present you with a tour of what i've done and seen. It's too cliche for me since it was what couldn't be seen by the eye that made me feel exceptionally touched. Ok, it was also the fact that i lived in Italy for some time when i was little but i had never been in Rome before.
Overall it was the enthusiasm of visiting a new place and feeling really ready to make new dreams, different dreams from the old ones. It's the feeling of escape in other worlds. It's the possibility of change. Yes, i felt all these and still feel them here in Athens which is really not that bad as most greeks think. I am ready again to write and paint after a long time of studying for my exams and working nonstop.
I am back! I am back and owe it all to my precious Rome!!!
Love
T.

P.s.(Maybe you should try it too ;-) )

The B circle!

2010-02-19T03:48:00.000-08:00

What is this?
Is it a game?
Is it a story for another weird dream?
Is it a kind of figure?
It's all together but nothing in particular!
I had a dream yesterday.
I dreamt of an old lady, here in Greece, who had it all.
She didn't have to try so hard.
She lived in a place where kind people like angels helped.
Nobody harassed her or tried to hurt her in anyway.
She was safe.
she was living life,
as a human being.
I woke up an turned on the T.V.
I saw a death
I saw a crime
A baby kidnap
but no real cry.
Only words.
Pretty yellow bimbos were trying to look touched
and then changed the subject to something more edible.
3 o'clock lunch was about to be served.
I turned the T.V. off and threw up.
I had to leave this circle.
I went out to throw away the trash.
I tried to buy some bread for my stomach
but blue dressed men stopped me.
The bakery was full of holes.
In the corned i saw a young girl passing a crying bag.
No worries...no annoyance.
But somehow i felt dizzy...and saw things...circles?
All together but nothing in particular!
Is it a kind of figure?
Is it a story for another weird dream?
Is it a game?
What is this?

Dreamers Vs Realists!

2010-02-04T02:51:00.000-08:00

Hello!
The past two days weren't as i wanted them to be. Nothing dramatic, just a lot of work and genuine feminine nerves. As a result my dreams were closer to nightmares...very stress-full. That made me think not only the effect of psychology in our subconscious but also the type of characteristics a dreamer has. If we accept the fact that every person is a dreamer we cannot reach a conclusion. So we'll have to recognize that some people dream more and others are more realists (like my mum). On the one hand, realists dream the possible...the real...they take well measured risks and as a result they end up succeeding in them or if they don't they aren't acting as broken hearted foolish dramatic clowns.
On the other hand dreamers who chase whatever their crazy mind has downloaded from the fantasy world are the ones who end up having all or nothing. I am keen to believe that the dreamers are the losers. When you are a dreamer reality is somehow the enemy. You need to overcome reality..create a new one...now and then. It seems to me that they live in the edge. Sometimes i feel i live in the edge of something.
Comedy and drama are parts of everybody's life...however dreamers exaggerate when experiencing them. Is that so bad? why? It hurts more...it feels good more...or not? Are we tiring our hearts out for nothing? Are dreamers like that? Really? Are you? And what about ego? Are dreamers selfish? Or we cannot put a dreamer in a box that easily? I guess not ha?

I hope i didn't confuse you with my confused thoughts.
Sweet dreams...
T.

Fulltime Dreamer - Christian Marsac

2010-01-20T05:09:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!
I have to admit that among my friends i am a famous full time dreamer. Sometimes i just don't listen to what they say...i don't answer their questions...or i answer and say something completely irrelevant to their topic. There are times when there is a pause among us and i suddenly break the silence by asking the most unbelievable questions. I can't change the way i am. I sometimes feel that i think too fast. I might think of five different subjects in a minute and ask completely different things which i somehow always manage to connect. However, deep down there are some basic ideas and purposes that i chase in my everyday reality..in my life.
This is why i noticed this song. I had listened to it before, since it's played on a series of MTV. But it wasn't until today that i payed more attention to the lyrics. If you have time...to dream...listen to it and think...about...whatever you want!

Have a nice day!
T.

p.s.(I'm a full time dreamer...dreams are my reality...)

New year's snowtime!

2010-01-06T09:34:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone!

Yes, it finally came. It arrived a bit late because i must admit i was expecting it some weeks sooner. It didn't last for long (like all good things) but i can't complain...since it was so beautiful.

Monday morning...
(i'm in love) but...it's also snowing! Yes, it's finally snowing! My dad couldn't handle his enthusiasm and woke us up (6:30 am) and we all pressed our noses on the windows watching the white miracle falling from the depths of the sky. Beautiful! It covered all roofs and cars and trees but by noon everything was gone! However, i had the chance to see a little snowman who survived hidden on the shadow of a path. And now back in the usual sunshine. It's ok. At least i had a glimpse of snow...i couldn't live with the thought that the entire Europe is full of it and in Greece there is none.

Anyway...good things last only for a while. Now i have to wear my costume cause it's carnival time here and guess what i'm dressing up?

A snowman of course!

Have fun...

Happy 2010!

Sunny days in my hometown!

2009-12-29T09:11:00.000-08:00

Here i am in my wonderful, fabulous hometown(the most beautiful of my country)...wondering where else should i go to have the honour to watch some snow falling?

We are famous of our winters! As children we were used to have thick snow in our doorsteps every Christmas. This year it's all here except "it"!

Yes...yes...my friends are all here! Our favourite going-out-points are all open and nicely decorated! We go out...catch up and drink hot coffee...great wine...but the cold is missing! There is that warm atmosphear upon our heads that reminds us of sunny springs and not those past winters when school closed because of heavy snowstorms. Those days were great. Now is as if we only live one season...or maybe two! Summer and Autumn! Disaster!

I want to wake up and see throught my window that beautiful white carpet upon roofs, chimneys and other people's windows. Then call the whole group and go to make a snowman! Maybe i have watched many U.S.A. christmas movies in the past...or maybe i need to watch one now to take down the level of my christmas-snow-falling-addictive syndrom!

Anyway...till that happen i think i'll probably eat a little bit more of that yummy christmas cake...and cookies and pudding and roast beef and...and...and! Am i too extreme in thoughts and actions? Well...forgive me...it's the period of excess...let's take a little advantage of it now that work is over!

Have a good one!

Photo from http://www.clipartguide.com/_named_clipart_images/0511-0811-0316-4958_Cartoon_of_a_Funny_Snowman_clipart_image.jpg

What?

2009-12-16T05:26:00.000-08:00

OK..that's weird!
I have just remembered..that i had another forbidden dream!
It came from nowhere...or to be more precise...it came from somewhere out of me!
I really feel a bit confused...since i wouldn't even consider experience such a thing!
I won't mention the story of the dream...because I'm a bit embarrassed. But it is very much like this....
It's like being neutral about the colour yellow your whole life...i mean...like it but not consider it your favourite colour or the colour that suits you best, completes you. Then here comes a dream about yellow...and they all tell you that you must wear yellow because that's your colour...and you feel good and pretty but you know deep down that your colour isn't yellow. You are certain that it's red. You love red. You miss red and you want to wear red again. So you are trying to escape from yellow and you ....wake up escaping!
What? You might think! I won't blame you. I also have the least idea of what this might mean. Could you please enlighten me...! Any idea would help. Really...

Dream...live...and love!
T.

Give your 100%!

2009-12-16T05:00:00.000-08:00

This Christmas...i am going to give it all. A 100% in all. They all say we shouldn't remember to love and hope...and give...and share...only during these days. I don't.
However...these days i have the advantage of time. I don't work...so...i can do all these small and big things which i don't have time to do the rest of the time. Let's face it...
It's the time of the season for loving....as the song says. So ...single or matched...feel the love...for your family and friends...for the lady who works in the baker's and is smiling to you 24/12...for the person standing next to you in the street...for the little annoying kids who wake you up singing the carols...for everyone...for the mirror who shows you! It's not vain...it's just Christmas...or maybe just a celebration of yourself!

Love you...
Love me....
Merry Christmas days!

P.s.(The song is dedicated to all of you and especially M.)

Who is that dreamy boy?

2009-12-02T03:36:00.000-08:00

One of the best videos i watched lately...completely by chance! Who is this Charlie...i have the least idea...! What really struck me is that he is very charismatic and talented! I don't know if he is famous but he should work on it.
We all have a double self somehow. And you can't say which one is actually the real one. Afterall we may are just a dream.

LYRICZ 'N CHORDZ:

Bm, F, C, A Dm
I am you, you are me
together we make a perfect charlie
And when I'm feeling down
We know that we will always be around

F, C, B
Our relationship is complicated
Sometimes it's hard to remember
That you're even there
But when I feel I'm being hated
Feeling lonely in December
Facing hardships that we can't bear
You'll help me come through the other side
You build up my confidence, and raise my pride
Together there's nothing that we can't face
Just as long as we embrace ourselves
It's just a shame that I hate you

F, C, B, C
You're insufferable, your acne's terrible
your sunny dispossession is completely unbearable
and worst of all, you've got no friends
they're just on the internet
you're a waste of space, you've got no life
got a mole on your face, you should take a knife
to your head, and do it before I do it instead

you're that perfect either, mate
in fact you're way too easy to hate
what 19 year old can't get a date
I guess it's fate, that you'll never find a soul mate
you're going to die alone, on your own
making crappy YouTube videos

Bm, F, C, A Dm
I am you, you are me
together we make an
spotty, unfit, neurotic, unfunny, forgetful, weedy Charlie
And when I'm feeling down
We know that we, will only ever have each other around

F, C, B
Our relationship is complicated
Sometimes it's hard to remember
That you're even there
But when I feel I'm being hated
Feeling lonely in December
Facing hardships that we can't bear
You'll help me come through the other side
You build up my confidence, and raise my pride
Together there's nothing that we can't face
Just as long as we embrace ourselves
You know that I really love you
I really love you too
Yes, even though it's vain, I feel the same
You need to be able to love yourself
but not in that way, what way?

p.s.
(ok i found out that his name is Charlie McDonnell ans has his own page...to watch. Here it is http://www.youtube.com/user/charlieissocoollike?blend=2&ob=1#p/p

Dancing...with the Dream!

2009-11-27T01:36:00.000-08:00

Here it is! A perfect example that dreams can come true...and let reality be what we used to dream of!
I used to see her coming in and out of the house she shared with her sister (a dear friend of mine). Always busy with something. Always advising us to do something more useful than drinking coffee and playing cards. She was the big sister and she was fully acting such one towards all of us. She always recommended the best movie, music, concerts, getting us in touch with other worlds and of course being a wiser person to talk to! Then she suddenly left for Brazil. A documentarist in search of her dream. I thought she'd never come back. Hopefully i was wrong. Not only she returned but she was ready to enlighten us of how life is in a different continent. And such a dreamy country as Brazil. That's when she get lost in her dream. Always reflecting on memories. Writing...the dream.
And here it is...her book...her experience...her achievement of that dream...and our inspiration to achieve ours.

Congratulations M.
Keep doing what you do!

Nail rain...?

2009-11-24T12:49:00.000-08:00

Was it the nail attack i experienced this morning? Was it the ridiculously hot weather even in the middle of November? Or the full of anxiety dream i had during the first morning hours? The result is the same...Me wondering...am i really dreaming all these...or are they actually happening?
It all began last night...
I had a bit of a problem falling asleep. After meeting every acre of the sheets i somehow closed my eyes for good and started dreaming a million of things! From that exciting million this only dream woke me up. A dream i really wouldn't prefer to refer to explicitly. It just get out of my feet...it was sad, anxious, frustrating and made my heart beat so fast that i actually woke up. It wasn't real..was it? I mean i can't imagine anything like that happening. However, i kept thinking of it...until the nail attack came.
I was trying to open a cupboard...and suddenly the nail case with hundrends of nails in all sizes almost fell on my head. Fortunately, i stepped back just on the right time to prevent the disaster. And end up watching in slow motion those little sparkling pointy mettalic walljabs falling. A hazardous rain tearing the thin atmosphear of the room. Then i woke up for a second time and realised that i my mind was like an abstact painting until then. The weather was too hot to be end of autumn and beggining of the winter (i mean Christmas are coming and i feel like it's still september). I felt confused. To speak from the heart i still am. I don't know what's happening. I am here now. Not so much distracted from reality but on the other hand i'm paying so little attention to what is happening around me that i don't know if i am just on my own world again or i'll have a very plausible keyboard attack any minute now.
Is there a scientific case that can explain my situation? Just in case...
I would happily hear similar experiences or explanations about my weird tale.
Thanks in advanced...
Take care!

After you've gone - Fiona Apple

2009-11-18T04:12:00.000-08:00

I love this song! It's so real (because we most feel this way after a break up) ...and so painfully sweet (because we know that when something is over most times its over for good but we keep dreaming) ! Well i didn't have a break up...but for those who had...and were left behind...wipe your tears and go on with your life. Oh...and what goes around comes around! ;)

Lyrics (http://www.lyricstime.com/fiona-apple-after-you-ve-gone-away-lyrics.html)

Now won't you listen to me honey while i say,
How could you tell me that you're goin' away?
Don't say that we must part, don't break my aching heart
You know i've loved you truly many years, loved you night and day
How could you tell it to me? can't you see my tears?
Now listen while i say

After you've gone, and left me crying
After you've gone, there's no denying
You'll feel blue, you'll feel sad
You'll miss the dearest pal you've ever had
There'll come a time, now don't forget it
There'll come a time, when you'll regret it
Some day, when you grow lonely
You heart will break like mine and you'll want me only
After you've gone, after you've gone away

After you've gone, after the break up
After you've gone, you're gonna wake up
You will find that you were blind
To let somebody come and change your mind
After the years, we've been together
Their joy and all tears, a-all kinds of weather
Someday, when you're downhearted
You'll long to be with me right back where you started
After you've gone, after you've gone away!

Love and Friendship!

2009-11-10T03:14:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!
After a few days of absence...i am back...i am baaaack...and furious!
Isn't love a kind of lottery? I think most of you will agree it is! Ok! Let's make it clear...I'm in love! Deeply, madly, annoyingly much...in love! So, living in my love cloud is such a dream...and such a nightmare at the same time.It is like living your favourite songs...sometimes tragic...sad...hard and other times passionate...sweet...tender...it has it all and i can't live without it! It's the salt in my life...the colours of my paintings...the water when i' m thirsty! Seriously...i can't imagine myself not being in love with something...if not someone! When i was a kid i used to be in love with things...hobbies and of course dreams! I was daydreaming everyday..even at school. Now that i have somehow grown up...is a bit more difficult to daydream but i steal some moments everyday to do it and of course being in love with a person other than my parents is the icing in the cake.
Why am i referring to all these things and especially my loves...? Hmmm, i guess i was just touched by looking around in the streets and noticing those little things i told you about in another post! Things that show that love is all around!!! Mothers and grandmothers taking care of their children and grandchildren, lonely passengers taking a glimpse at each other, teenage couples holding hands, elderly couples holding hands, friends teasing each other ...and all other kind of romantic images.
Am i too dreamy, hopeful or optimistic? Maybe...but i like living in such a world. I like looking on the bright side of life...maybe because i have spent much time looking on the sad and ugly one. What's the point in feeling frustrated all the time and paying attention in mean words that someone somehow will utter literally or ironically against you? People are strange...everybody knows that. I am strange...and different...we all are. What really matters to me is respecting myself and i can do that only by respecting others. You can't just treat people badly and being a respectful human being. And above all, how will you feel inside? My friends are all around and they are different people...have different ideas, thoughts, hairstyles, haircuts, dressing codes, music preferances e.t.c. That's why they are my friends, because they are different from me...but i respect their difference and they respect mine and also i had the luck to meet them (luck is always a factor). Okey dokey...sometimes i tease them..they tease me but that's the best thing. I never judge them for their choices...neither do they. Being loved and acceptable for what you really are is what we all want and what we all dream to be. Right? So another time in our life's crosswords reality and dreams cross. Real and true friendship and love is probably the one that sweeps us off our feet with joy...just by giving us the dreamy gift of unconditional acceptance. Hmmmm?

Love and Kisses
T.A.

I sneez..it's snowing!

2009-11-03T02:10:00.000-08:00

Good morning!
What a beautiful cloudy dark morning my boyfriend would say. However he is working right now...somewhere two hours away from me and i' m sitting here...writing and drinking tea. He is completely jealous of my mornings...and i am completely jealous of his afternoons. I work mostly afternoons and evenings you see. So, i' m stuck again on that dreamy atmosphear which would be so romantic if i could share it with him. I miss him so much an i' m getting ready to eat some chocolate...when...
my brother calls. My beloved little brother...who still goes to school and today he was feeling sick so he skipped it! I love him so much...but he never lets me speak on the phone and he always has the most incredible news...! Today it was the snow...in my hometown where my family still lives it was snowing. Pure heavy white snow my mum said. So beautiful. Memories started unfolding from my childhood mindbook. I almost wish i was there.
But i am here...in a very cold...full of cars and screaming people Athens. I remembered that i saw some shops preparing for Christmas yesterday. And i now hope it will snow here too this year. I miss it so much. I used to see snow every year from november till february. Now it's just Christmas...like in the movies. Christmas songs from Nat King Cole and Frank Sinatra are playing on my playlist and i ....acheew....i sneez...is it the first cold of the year? Is it my daydream of snow? Or just a reaction to the spicy tea i'm drinking? All i can say is that while i sneeze in Athens...it's snowing up there and i'm feeling blue! What about you?

Walking towards the dream...

2009-10-30T03:20:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!!!
Ι have to get used to it...my life is synonymous to coincidence. Whatever i do...whatever i say...it's there in front of me the next day! And as my yoga-pilates teacher says :"We choose which road to take in our lives. And if that road has no obstacles is probably the wrong one". I face obstacles...everyday...day by day...in everything...personal and professional life. Ok. It's not that hard but i manage it and i can say i feel happy and complete...i give and take. So, have i picked the right road so far? I feel so.
However, I'll never get used to these small everyday coincidences that occur to me. For example, i teach and during class i referred to a movie as an example to my students. That happened last night and here i am the next morning watching a trailer advertising the same movie to be played tonight on a famous Greek channel and actually using the same phrase of the movie i used with my students. You might say...coincidence..that happens everyday and it's actually so useless to bother with such small details. You probably are right. I am maybe too sensitive to those things or have a weird hobby. i don't know! Does it happen to you?
My Yoga- pilates teacher also says that "We choose our road in order to reach a dream we have. If we have no dream then that's why the road is easy...but following one's dream it's always hard'. I figured out that this is true. I believe it is so because we are keen on idealizing our dreams.
Anyway, out of all these messy thoughts i finally made a decision. it's not big news since i always were an easy and kind person...but here it is. I pay attention to minor coincidences, they make my days better. I like being nice and others to be nice to me. So...after relaxing ten minutes breathing in and out in yoga and thinking about shopping tomatoes afterwards..it occurred to me..."I will chase that ideal secret dream i have...and i won't pay attention to miserous people who are negative towards me any more". From now on...positive thinking will be my second name. And all that after only the third yoga class. Think of me in the 20th!!! Hehe.

Hope to hear from you soon....keep on dreaming!!!

Rainy Dreams - Sunny Days!

2009-10-20T00:39:00.000-07:00

I'm really fed up with these ridiculously sunny and warm days! It's the mid of October and we haven't had a single decent cold autumn day! Where is the autumn's romantic chill? Where is the introduction of the forthcoming winter? It's either hot or cold! No middle temperature! No middle seasons any more!Summer and Winter! The autumn is officially deleted from the calendar! Gone! Vanished into thin air! I don't know what clothes to wear! I wore a mixture of everything for the past two weeks. But on the past weekend I got the hope that rain is coming! It rained on Saturday! I stored all summer clothes and put out the warm ones. Useless! The awfully good days are back again!
I believe that the above feelings from which I can't escape where the reason I dreamed of rain last night! Pure healing rain! I was in a big house with glass windows with my boyfriend and family....suddenly it started raining! It was a strong rain and we all went outside in the balcony to feel it! It was so strong that hit us in the face smoothly without even going near it! Adorable! I could even smell it while dreaming it! That's how much i want it to rain! Any way, i also checked out the interpretation of rain in Dreammoods.com! That's it...

Rain
To dream that you get wet from the rain, indicates cleansing from your troubles and problems. Rain also symbolizes fertility and renewal. To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain may be a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. To dream that you are watching the rain from a window, indicates that spiritual ideas and insights are being brought to you awareness. It may also symbolize fortune and love. To hear the tapping of the rain on the roof, denotes spiritual ideas and blessings coming to mind. It may also suggests that you will receive much joy from your home life.

Rather good..i'm thinking! Was that a good dream? We will see. I will inform you the next days. I get the hope that something new and good is coming for all my family and me! Wish me the best. And i wish you the best too!

Have a nice week...T.A.

The Forbidden!

2009-10-14T01:10:00.000-07:00

Love is like dreams...some days it feels like a nightmare but others like an unlimited blur of happiness! Even sex is like dreams...sometimes its passionate and dark and others is light as a feather...sensitive...delicate! It's the two sides of us shown in every emotion we have as in our dreams!
We understand our emotions most of the time! We almost track their source. However, in our dreams the subconscious takes over and makes a mess of all we believe ourselves to be in everyday life. It is a fact that we all see dreams that make us wonder "why did I dream of that?".
Last night I saw another dream of that kind, I dreamed of something i' ve never thought about and i don't even like. I hadn't read anything similar before sleeping or the days before. i hadn't watched or seen a movie or scene similar to what i dreamed of. And somehow i wonder the same thing we all wonder sometimes...where did that dream came from?
I don't live a strict life. I am a very open minded and relaxed person. Most of the time i don't push myself in order to do what i must do...but i mostly do what i want to do. That however doesn't make me selfish. I respect other peoples needs and wishes. Overall, i don't feel that i forbid myself anything i want. And that is what confuses me the most. Why do i dream of the forbidden since i don't have any repressed feelings? Do you dream of the forbidden too?

Have a nice rest of the day,
T.

The night of "Bitter Moon".

2009-10-07T03:32:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone! What's up?
For the last two months i' m really getting used to life's coincidences! What i mean is that whatever i think about for example a person...a theme...an object..e.t.c. i somehow find it infront of me the next days!
One example is this, i finally saw one of my best friend's favourite movies "Bitter Moon". For about one year she was trying to get me to see it but i was too busy doing other things and having in the back of my mind the thought that i would see it when i' d be in the mood!
I had asked my boyfriend to watch it together but when i was in the mood he wasn't and when he was i wasn't. Then one day he said the film was offered by a sunday newspaper and we could take it. I said that it was ok we could just rent it but he bought it anyway. I actually believe that i still wouldn't have seen it if it weren't for him and the newspaper.
One night a few days later we decided to watch it and before putting it on i noticed it was Roman polanskis' whose movies i reagard as masterpieces. We watched it with full attention and it really get into us! We were both confused and sad. It was a hard movie and there were moments that i wanted to stop watching but at the end it was a good one that i won't forget. Really taking feelings to the edge but revealing that somehow we all have limits and hidden feelings!
The stricking coincidence came the next day. At noon i opened the tv and saw that Roman Polanski was arrested the night before..the night i was watching the film. It's just like i was meant to see that movie on that particular day! I also heard of the past scandal that threatened to sent him to jail again. I couldn't believe it but the scandal story was in a way connected with the movie. An older man who left U.S. and lives in France has a realationship with a young girl...just up to that though.
I'm writing this piece at the moment because i came across an article about Polanski's life a few moments ago and i was astonished about his experiences(Living as a child World War II, Bad treated by his foster parents, the tragic loss of his own family and running away from U.S.). I also read of all the famous people who believe in his innocence and those who believe that he could be punished.
I won't express an opinion on the matter. Polanski's films aren't typical and happy ending and i believe his life isn't so also. Whatever the decision to be made by the situs i hope a good film will be made by it and expecting to watch it on the cinema...not as an offer from newspapers anymore!

U.S. Blues in U.K. memories!

2009-09-30T01:28:00.000-07:00

Three years have gone since that trip to U.K. I remember me as a little girl crossing streets in Liverpool, Manchester, London...who knows why! I haven't walked that much in my life except maybe last year's other trip to London which was a completely different matter!
Since that first trip...everything has changed! Some people are out of my life for good...and others are in for good! But somehow...i keep thinking again of those past days! It's my way of not forgetting who i was and who i am now. I made mistakes. We all made mistakes.
I grew up to be different but also the same!
Now... Living in a different place, co-existing with someone on the same house, working and writing as the days go by...have changed me! And now i keep dreaming of those days listening U.S.blues. I have a bitter-sweet taste in my mouth that growing up and changing it's ok...because on the inside i'm pretty much the same person...which i sometimes love or hate...who sometimes loves or hates...but on the bottom of the line is not afraid to live, dream and live her dreams!

Cat Power : The Greatest

Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or waterfall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned deep to dust

Melt me down into big black armour
Leave no trace of grace
Just in your honor
Lower me down to culprit south
Make 'em wash a space in town

For the lead and the dregs of my bed
i've been sleeping
Lower me down, pin me up
Secure the grounds for the later parade

Once I wanted to be the greatest
two fists of solid rock
with brains that could explain
Any feeling

Lower me down, pin me up
Secure the grounds
for the lead and the dregs of my bed
i've been sleeping for the later parade

Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or water fall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned deep to dust

Dedicated to those past days and to the forthcoming ones.

Norah Jones...the best!

2009-09-22T03:00:00.000-07:00

Norah Jones - Don't Know Why
I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road along

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

The Shoe Story No2!

2009-09-21T13:18:00.000-07:00

It was on a messy morning...
one of those that the weather is so unstable as a toddler.
Rainy, sunny, rainy, cloudy, windy...it had it all!
I was waiting on the bus station, listening to music, looking around , thinkin', taking silly photos.I had my red shoes on and i was taking a picture of them!
Then suddenly i saw another shoe in my photo...!
"Lord we have a shoe meeting " i thought!

And then you smiled...
i guess you knew me well enough to let it go that easily!
I had no idea why you stepped on my shoe photo.
"Is this the shoe story no2 ?" i thought.
So i stepped on your shoe...just to show you how much i still like you!

The miracle happened...the shoe meeting was successful...
and we had a shoe date!
I really walked along with you because of our shoes.

However, back home i couldn't stop thinkin' of you...
i couldn't stop calling you by your name all the time...
i couldn't stop living with you a...hm..whatever!
And then my curiosity called me...and said...
girl, remember the shoe story no1...two years ago...
when you were far from each other...!
Different shoes same people...same feelings or did they grow stronger...
now we live together!
But how did it begin?
Be aware for "The Shoe Story No1"...
COMING SOON!

My Blurry Nights!

2009-09-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

Feelin' blurry and confused? Just need somethin' to cheer you up? That's the movie! That's the spirit! It's not dreamy! But it is not realistic either! What is it then? Can you please tell me? Why do i always get stuck with those delirious films? I mean there are hundrends of all sorts of movies i liked and like...but i always get stuck with the somehow romances! The Notebook by Nick Cassavetes(that's a romance), My Blueberry Nights by Kar-Wai Wong, Jeux D'Enfants by Jann Samuell, V for Vendetta directed by James Mc Teigue e.t.c. are the serious examples of films which i' ve watched again and again and i won't stop watchin'! Are they just closer to me? I don't think so! I mean how can i possibly be close to the guy in Into The Wild when my character, my ideas...my entire life is totally different? I surely know about the connection of cinema and voyerism...i've done some lessons on how we all like being voyers and cinema is the perfect solution to that! Our secret window and our secret mirror at the same time! We are by our nature curious to see what others do. However, do we merely view also ourselves into the cinema screens..that's why we get stuck to certain movies? Do certain movies encapture what we really are inside..or what we dream of ourselves? Maybe...maybe not! Again...there is no rule! At the end...i came across the well-known movie...You've got mail..with Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan and for the tenth time in my life i couldn't help it but watchin' it! Even though i knew every scene....i remembered almost every line...i still didn't change the channel and i still...cried at the end when they kiss each other in that wonderful dreamy park of NY! Happiness? Relief? Romance? Do i miss all that? I don't know! The subconsious is something i will never understand! Bye now...I going to get a hug!

P.S.(And it goes on...last week i bought also the soundtrack of My Blueberry Nights...i just can't get enough...can i?)

The perfect flaw!

2009-09-17T03:53:00.000-07:00

Last night i came across a movie much played in Greek t.v. years now, 'She Devil'! I had seen it once again some years ago. However, i had forgotten most of the main details of the plot. As soon as Meryl Streep crashed into the screen and on the opposite Roseanne Barr i couldn't help it thinkin'..who is actually the ugly one? The fat sweetheart? Or the barbie-thin bitch? I just couldn't stop wondering whether this happens in real life? If a person who looks like a nightmare is actually a dream...and a person who looks like a dream is a bad character? Of course there is no rule on the matter! Plus that...a male friend which i asked on the case...said "i can't understand you!!!".
So, what do you think? Is there actually a 'devil' inside any of us?
What we see and what is real might be two different things. But how can one reecognise a beast inside a beauty or a beauty inside a beast? At the end what we dream of someone to be might be different and we can like it, hate it, fall in love with it, be friends or just reject it! There is no such thing as perfect in the real world! Perfection is somehow the opposite of life! Most people seek perfection and that's logical! Perfection is closer to what we dream. But even in our dreams i believe that what appelas to us as perfect in any situation is somehow...weird..or different for each person!
They say that one man's garbage is the other's treasure! What if we are made not to embrasse perfection but to embrase flaws? Flaws are hard to face but they are at the same time the assets that make someone or ourselves special! Do our differences identify our real self? I think so...and eaither way...it's better to face something real...than livin' on a constant dream! Don't misunderstand me...just keep your eyes open!
bye for now...
T.

p.s.(Whatever the case...learn from the others flaws...and don't disregard anyone...cause who knows...you might face a he- she- devil!)

Worth1000...worths 1000! To worth1000 αξίζει 1000!

2009-09-16T02:55:00.000-07:00

Reality and Dreams are obvious in each photo of this site! The artists have done an amazing job in combining real features with others that exist only in their fantasies. Even thought anyone can understand that pictures are made...it is the fact that people made them that way which tickles our thoughts and makes us realise the countless views and optical ankles one can have on a certain picture of a person, animal, scenery, object e.t.c.
I pause for a second, and think, why and when did a mind caught on such an image of disturbance or beauty? Are we daydreaming of such images? I actually do so! Not frequently, but now that I' m considering myself doing it...i realise i often picture images of ugliness or beauty in my head! I often look at certain features in front of me and fantasize them changed. Good or bad, right or wrong...ethical or not...i believe we all do it. Is it part of our night dreams too? I don't know! Dreams can be confusing...like the ones i saw last night. However, in fantasy there are no boundaries...and everything can exist...as in dreams.

Sleep nomatter what! - Κοιμηθείτε ότι κι αν γίνει!

2009-09-15T02:05:00.000-07:00

Goodmorning fellows..ελπίζω να κοιμηθήκατε καλά χτες...να χαλαρώσατε και να γεμίσατε ενέργεια.
Έχουμε όλοι παρατηρήσει πως τα όνειρα μας επηρεάζονται σε μεγάλο βαθμό από τη τελευταία σκέψη που κάνουμε πριν κοιμηθούμε ή από κάτι που μας απασχολεί. Για παράδειγμα αν παρεξηγηθούμε για κάτι με το έτερον ήμισυ πριν κοιμηθούμε υπάρχει μεγάλη πιθανότητα να δούμε ένα όνειρο που να εκφράζει τα συναισθήματα μας στη πραγματικότητα Το υποσυνείδητο πανταχού παρόν. Αν νιώθουμε εγκλωβισμένοι στη σχέση πιθανόν να ονειρευτούμε μια σωτήρια νέα κατάσταση ή παρουσία. Αν η σχέση πάει καλά αλλά η παρεξήγηση ήταν για λόγο παιδιάστικο ίσως δούμε απλά σαν όνειρο τα γεγονότα της προηγούμενης μέρας. Όπως και να' χει ένα είναι σίγουρο οι παρεξηγήσεις όπως και τα όνειρα μετά απ' αυτές μας διδάσκουν! Το τι είναι καθαρά υποκειμενικό αλλά κάτι μαθαίνουμε!
Κι επιπλέον αγαπητοί φίλοι..υπάρχει άλλη μια βεβαιότητα...μετά από όλα αυτά...θέλουμε να έχουμε το πάνω χέρι στη συμφιλίωση. Όλοι θέλουμε να έχουμε πάντα δίκιο και να το αποδεικνύουμε
Φιλικές συμβουλές λοιπόν προς όλους αλλά και προς ένα συγκεκριμένο άτομο:
1) Ο ύπνος και τα όνειρα είναι πολύτιμα...μη τα χαλάτε για μικροπαρεξηγήσεις.
2) Αν τα χαλάσετε για μικροπαρεξηγήσεις τις οποίες δε μπορέσατε να λύσετε μέχρι που το σώμα σας άγγιξε το στρώμα...χαλαρώστε...υπάρχει και η επόμενη μέρα.
3) Αν δε μπορείτε να χαλαρώσετε...πάρτε ένα τηλέφωνο, γράψτε ένα μήνυμα, ένα γράμμα. Απλώς τελειώνετε μ' αυτό και..ηρεμήσετε
4) Το χειρότερο που μπορείτε να κάνετε αν κοιμάστε μαζί με το άτομο που παρεξηγηθήκατε είναι να κάνετε σα να μη συνέβη τίποτα. Μη παίζετε με τη κρίση των άλλων.
5) Εν ολίγοις τα μούτρα δεν ωφελούν πουθενά ρίξτε τα ή κοιμηθείτε να τελειώνουμε.

Αυτά λοιπόν κι όποιος δε κατάλαβε...ας φάει το παγωτό του! Οι υπόλοιποι...βλέπω φυλάτε καλά τη ζαχαρένια σας!!! Goodbye my friends...play it smart!

Insomnia - Αυπνία!

2009-09-14T04:58:00.000-07:00

Insomnia is a symptom of any of several sleep disorders, characterized by persistent difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep despite the opportunity. Insomnia is a symptom, not a stand-alone diagnosis or a disease. By definition, insomnia is "difficulty initiating or maintaining sleep, or both" and it may be due to inadequate quality or quantity of sleep. It is typically followed by functional impairment while awake. Both organic and non-organic insomnia without other cause constitute a sleep disorder, primary insomnia.

According to the United States Department of Health and Human Services in the year 2007, approximately 64 million Americans regularly suffer from insomnia each year. Insomnia is 1.4 times more common in women than in men.

Τουλάχιστον ένας στους τέσσερις Ελληνες εμφανίζει παροδική ή χρόνια αϋπνία, η οποία οφείλεται σε ψυχιατρικούς, παθολογικούς ή/και περιβαλλοντικούς παράγοντες. Μεταξύ των περιβαλλοντικών συγκαταλέγονται και οι ασυνήθιστα υψηλές θερμοκρασίες που επικρατούν τις τελευταίες ημέρες στη χώρα μας και οι οποίες είναι σε θέση να αναστατώσουν το «βιολογικό ρολόι» όσον αφορά τον ύπνο. Ως αποτέλεσμα του «κακού» ύπνου -τόσο σε επίπεδο ποσότητας όσο και ποιότητας- είναι το άτομο να αισθάνεται έντονη κόπωση καθ’ όλη τη διάρκεια της ημέρας.

Επιστρέφω απο τον αιώνιο ύπνο! Αφου το πέρασα κι αυτό και συνειδητοποίησα πόσο πολύτιμο είναι να κοιμάσαι με ή και χωρίς όνειρα σκέφτηκα να σας ζαλίσω λιγάκι...εσάς τους πολλούς που με διαβάζετε. Ναι, έχω τη κρυφή ελπίδα πως ίσως με διαβάσει και κάποιος καινούριος και ίσως... λάβω και μια σχετική απάντηση. Ποτέ δε ξέρεις...απο μέρα σε μέρα έρχεται λέω στον εαυτό μου...αυτή και η απάντηση στο παράπονο που έστειλα στον οασα.
Στο θέμα μου τώρα...! Ήταν μια περίοδος αλλαγών και πάλι..όπως κάθε σεπτέμβρη. Αγχώθηκα για πολλούς και διάφορους λόγους. Επιπλέον, άλλαξα περιβάλλον κι αυτό προκαλεί μια μελαγχολία. Η επιστροφή στη δουλειά μετά το καλοκαίρι δεν είναι ότι πιο εύκολο. Έτσι λοιπόν, παρά τη κουρασή της μέρας και το κενό σαββατοκύριακο που είχα να απολαύσω...τα μάτια μου δεν έκλειναν. Ένιωθα τις μπαταρίες μου να αδειάζουν. Στο μυαλό μου συσσωρεύοταν τόσες σκέψεις σα ποπ κορν που πετίουνται και γεμίζουν σχεδόν όλο το διάφανο κουβούκλιο. Στριφογύρισα, σκέφτηκα κάτι χαλαρό, σηκώθηκα, έκανα ντους, ήπια κάτι, έκανα ζάπινγκ, άκουσα μουσική, γκρίνιαξα στο φίλο μου που δε μου έφταιγε σε τίποτα κι έπειτα...δεν υπήρχε κανείς άλλος ξύπνιος...κανείς που να θέλω να μιλήσω...κι ένιωθα κουρασμένη αλλά τα μάτια μου δεν έκλειναν. Ήταν πραγματικά απαίσιο συναίσθημα...η κούραση και η ατονία ήταν απίστευτη...και κράτησε δυο μέρες. Έπειτα το πήρα απόφαση. Ποτέ πια καφέ στις οχτώ. Ποτέ πια άγχος για τα καθημερινά αλλά και για όλα τα άλλα άσχετα που συχνά μας έρχονται στο μυαλό.
Έτσι εδώ και μια βδομάδα κοιμάμαι και πάλι. Είχα και παλιά περιπτώσεις που δε με έπιανε ύπνος αλλά όχι σε τέτοιο σημείο. ΄Ηταν πάντα πριν απο ένα ταξίδι ή απο εξετάσεις αλλά δεν είχε ούτε τόση διάρκεια ούτε τόση ένταση. Πραγματικά λυπάμαι πολύ όσους δε μπορούν να κοιμηθούν. Δε το είχα σκεφτεί ποτέ σοβαρά αλλά τελικά η αυπνία είναι μεγάλο πρόβλημα. Ευτυχώς τη γλίτωσα με λίγες μέρες σαν ορεκτικό κι έτσι δε θα καταλήξω αποτρελαμένη, με δυο δουλειές ή μυστική ντετέκτιβ για να περνάω τις βραδινές ώρες μου.
Ελπίζω κι εσείς να κοιμάστε καλά κι αν όχι μη προσπαθήσετε όσα προσπάθησα εγώ απλά κάντε μια συζήτηση με τον εαυτό σας...περί ύπνου και προβλημάτων και θα δείτε πως το σκορ είναι 1-0 απ'το πρώτο ημίχρονο. Πανηγυρική νίκη του μορφέα!
Τα λέμε σύντομα...χωρίς εφιάλτες!

Dreams We Had As Children - Όνειρα Που Κάναμε Παιδιά

2009-08-22T08:36:00.000-07:00

Υπάρχει ένα τραγούδι που λέει > δηλαδή..<<Για ποιο σκοπό ζούμε αφού τα όνειρα που κάναμε παιδιά ξεθωριάζουν;>>. Το άκουσα τυχαία όπως και το αγόρασα τυχαία. Στο πρώτο μου κοινό ταξίδι στο εξωτερικό με το φίλο μου! Εκστασιασμένοι τουρίστες στο πεντακάθαρο πανέμορφο και (ναι πιστέψτε το..)ηλιόλουστο κέντρο του Λονδίνου...αγοράσαμε εφημερίδα και είχε δώρο το σι ντι!
Έπειτα από δυο μήνες, ενώ καθόμουν σπίτι ανήσυχη κι έψαχνα κάτι δημιουργικό να κάνω...το έβαλα στη τύχη να δω τη έχει...κι έτσι κόλλησα! Ήταν λες και έδινε απάντηση στις αναζητήσεις μου! συχνά αναρωτιόμουν αν όσα ονειρευόμουν ή σκεφτόμουν σε μικρότερη ηλικία με αντικατόπτριζαν ακόμη έως ένα βαθμό. Με το τραγούδι έφτασα στο συμπέρασμα πως τα όνειρα που έκανα παιδί...και ειδικά στην εφηβεία είναι όνειρα που με στιγμάτισαν. Φυσιολογικό δεν είναι άλλωστε?
Έτσι επί τόπου πήρα την απόφαση να μη τα παρατήσω έτσι απλά και να συνεχίσω όσα ξεκίνησα από παιδί. Κάπου εκεί πήρα και το καβαλέτο και έφτιαξα κάτι όμορφο για το σπίτι της μαμάς που με παρακαλούσε 2 χρόνια! Άλλωστε της το χρωστούσα. Εκτός από μητέρα μου είναι και η νούμερο 1 και μοναδική θαυμάστρια μου!
Έπειτα από όλα αυτά..κοιμήθηκα απίστευτα και παρόλο που δεν έχω ιδέα τι όνειρα είδα...ξύπνησα μια χαρά!
Σκεφτείτε το λοιπόν...μήπως μικρές θέλατε να γίνετε μπαλαρίνες, ζωγράφοι, αρχαιολόγοι, ηθοποιοί και άλλα πολλά? ποτέ δεν είναι αργά να καταπιαστείτε με κάτι μικρό...που ίσως κάποια μέρα γίνει μεγάλο! Γιατί μεταξύ μας...την έχω τη κρυφή ελπίδα πως ο παράξενος πίνακας με τα τρελά λουλούδια θα γίνει ο νέος Βαν Γκονγκ! Μέχρι τότε...καλή διασκέδαση...κυνηγήστε το!!!

Angels and Demons! Άγγελοι και Δαίμονες!

2009-08-20T04:02:00.000-07:00

Καλησπέρα σε όλους!
Ελπίζω να χαλαρώσατε και να ονειρευτήκατε στις διακοπές σας με μάτια ανοιχτά αλλά και κλειστά. Το φετινό καλοκαίρι είχα τη χαρά να ζήσω 20 ολόκληρες ημέρες διακοπών και μπορώ να πω πως από τώρα τις αναπολώ και σκέφτομαι ότι θα τις ονειρεύομαι επόμενα καλοκαίρια.
Χτες βράδυ όπως πάντα είδα όνειρα...έλα όμως που εδώ και μερικούς μήνες τείνω να θυμάμαι τα άσχημα όνειρα μόνο! Μια καλή φίλη μου λέει πως είναι τα πρωινά όνειρα σύμφωνα με τον φρόυντ γι' αυτό και τα θυμάμαι. Η μαμά λέει πως είναι θέμα άγχους. Ο φίλος μου λέει πως είμαστε μακριά και μόλις πάω κοντά του δε θα βλέπω πια τόσο συχνά τέτοια όνειρα. Θυμάμαι επίσης τον παπά που είχαμε στα θρησκευτικά κι έλεγε πως ο διάβολος μας δοκιμάζει.
Το όνειρο όμως που είδα εγώ δεν ήταν πριν ξυπνήσω. Είχα λίγο άγχος βέβαια αλλά είχα πιει κι ένα ποτηράκι κρασί κι είχα χαλαρώσει. επίσης έβλεπα τέτοια όνειρα όταν ήμουν κοντά στο φίλο μου. Και τέλος δε ξέρω αν δοκιμάζομαι αλλά κι έτσι αν είναι δε ψάρωσα.
Αυτό που πιστεύω πραγματικά πως είναι η αιτία των ονείρων είναι η προκατάληψη μου! Πάντα πέφτω για ύπνο με τη ψυχολογία πως θα δω ένα τέτοιο όνειρο. κι έπειτα πάντα μου άρεσε στις ιστορίες να υπάρχει κι ένας κακός αλλιώς δε θα' χε νόημα! Αρκεί μετά από τη μάχη με το χτεσινό δαίμονα που ήταν σαν αυτός της βίβλου με κόκκινη κάπα κέρατα ουρά κτλ να ξυπνώ και να έχω δίπλα μου αυτούς που θέλω...τους δικούς μου αγγέλους.
κι αν τρομάξω και λίγο...όπως κάνει η γιαγιά μου...θα το πω στη τουαλέτα και θα πατήσω το καζανάκι να φύγει μακριά. χαχα!

Εις το επανειδήν ...ελπίζω με όμορφα όνειρα κι αν είναι σα τα δικά μου...ε δε πειράζει...χωρίς μερικούς κακούς δε θα' ταν τόσο ενδιαφέροντα!

Goodmorning and good luck - - Καλημέρα και καλή τύχη!

2009-08-05T01:22:00.000-07:00

Καλημέρα σε όλους κι ευχαριστώ για τη προσοχή σας!
Εδώ και αρκετό καιρό είχα στο νου μου να μιλήσω μα δεν ήξερα πως και πολλές φορές ξεχνούσα το γιατί! Τελικά χτες το βράδυ μεταξύ ύπνου και ξυπνητού είδα στο μυαλό μου όλες τις λέξεις και τις εικόνες που με απασχολούσαν συνειδητά και ασυνείδητα και κατάλαβα για άλλη μια φορά πόσο κοντά είναι τα όνειρα στη πραγματικότητα! Όνειρα με μάτια ανοιχτά αλλά και κλειστά, κι αποφάσισα να γράφω γι' αυτά. Όχι για να τα αντιπαραθέσω, απλά για να δούμε πόσο επηρεάζει το ένα το άλλο.
Χτες λοιπόν είδα μπροστά μου αρχικά όλες τις εικόνες για τις οποίες διάβαζα στο βιβλίο του κινγκ...λίγο τρομακτικές αλλά όχι τόσο για ν'ανοίξω τα μάτια να κοιτάξω αν σαλεύει η κουρτίνα. ΒΙΒΛΙΟ σκέφτηκα αλλάζοντας πλευρό κι έπειτα...ΔΙΚΟ ΜΟΥ. Απο όταν θυμάμαι τον εαυτό μου ήθελα ένα δικό μου βιβλίο!Όταν πήρα το πρώτο μου παραμύθι το απομνημόνευσα και προσπάθησα να φτιάξω δικό μου. Στο δημοτικό διάβαζα τις εκθέσεις στη τάξη και σκάρωνα στοιχάκια συνέχεια. Στο γυμνάσιο έγραφα γράμματα σε όλους με τη παραμικρή ευκαιρία και ακόμη και τώρα κρατάω τετράδια σκέψεων και ημερολόγια! Η επόμενη όμως λέξη που ζωγραφίστηκε μπροστά μου ήταν ΔΙΑΦΗΜΙΣΗ και θυμήθηκα αλλάζοντας πάλι πλευρό ότι στη μοναδική μου απόπειρα να γράψω βιβλίο η απάντηση του μοναδικού κριτή μου ήταν πως είναι λιγάκι βαρύ και οτί σε άσχετη στιγμή που δίαβαζα ένα ποιηματάκι στο πλάι ενός φρουτοχυμού μου είπε πως θα μου ταίριαζε πολύ να γράφω τα διαφημιστικά καρτελάκια των προιόντων. Μεταξύ μας δηλαδή αυτά τα στοιχάκια που επαινούν το προιόν και δε τα διαβάζει ποτέ κανείς. Κοιμήθηκα λοιπόν με αυτή την σκέψη του χαμένου ταλέντου γιατί ακόμη κι αν υποθέσουμε πως όντως έχω αυτό το ταλέντο κι ακόμη κι αν υπερβάλλουμε πως θα το χρησιμοποιήσω στη διαφήμιση...ποιος πρόκειται να το αναγνωρίσει ποτέ? και ποια η χρησιμότητα του πέρα απ' το να πουλήσει λίγους χυμούς παραπάνω?
Ξύπνησα έχοντας ονειρευτεί ότι μου τηλεφλωνησε μια φίλη μου που περνάει δύσκολα αυτό το καιρό για να μου πει να πάω στο νοσοκομείο. Εγώ πήγα με μια τυρόπιτα την οπία της επαινούσα και μόλις άρχισε να τρώει έβγαλα ένα βιβλίο κι αρχισα να διαβάζω. Συμπέρασμα? Μάλλον ανυπομωνούσα να ξυπνήσω να φάω και να διαβάσω αν και είχα λίγο άγχος για τη φίλη μου.
Πως λοιπόν τα όνειρα μπερδέυονται με τη πραγματικότητα πως τα επηρεάζει και την επηρεάζουν είναι κάτι που το βιώνω συνεχώς και θα' θελα να ακούσω πως το βιώνετε κι εσείς. Πέρα απ' αυτό ίσως θα' ταν καλό να διαβάζουμε που και που τα στοιχάκια των χαμένων ταλέντων στα κουτιά των προιόντων...έτσι προς τιμήν τους!
Σας αποχαιρετώ για τις υπόλοιπες 10 μέρες των διακοπών μου με μια καλημέρα και καλή τύχη...για το υπόλοιπο της μέρας και για κάθε μέρα!